The End of Another Year

Well it's New Years Eve I'm sitting in Heidis aparment and her friends never in my life have I ever felt so out of place. I wish I could understand why I'm like this but whatever, anyway yesterday we had a show in Pineville our hometown crowd came out it was truely amazing and one of the more fun shows we played. It was just an amazing time for all of us gained some new fans met some amazing people overall a really fun fun time. Currently I'm listening to pulling teeth and reflecting way too much I dont mind it never have really thats all I've ever really done is worry way too much and reflect. Not a bad combination if you ask me sometimes I wonder if I make the right decisions I doubt I do. At this current moment I cant stand myself I cant stand the thought of myself from outside of my body its killing me, it's killing me internally. My physical self has been dragging to the point of where it feels like its impossible to move. I dont understand I've been slacking it's times like these that make me wish i had no life. I'm just so upset with my self, choices and life.