holy shit

I've not been posting like I said I would sorry sorry. Tour was really fun went through one van haha heidi broke up with me which i think was for the best anyway. Thats basically january except Jan31st i seen agnostic front for the 1st time wouldnt be the last very next night in nashville as well as of last night in spartanburg sc my life rules best friends , hardcore thats all i need. Thats exactly what me and mark from ag front was talking about I know i'm not like everyone and i'm ok with that i' m not gonna have a $500,000 home with a porsche. All i want is a nice home I can call my own with a car good family and someone who supports me in all that I do. Thats all I got right now will post later

Aggresion

These are lyrics from my band about my wreck


Laying on the table the nurse prepares
I can not look I can not breathe
this cant be happening

looking back on the events that took place
why wasnt I tangled up
on the side of a river bank no where to go

I should have bled to death

again

Sitting around basically bored out of my goddamn mind listening to two drunk girls say stupid shit. I'm sick of this I'm sick of listening to everyones bullshit I'm tired of this I'm spreading a message across the United States. I have no future I am not going to college I am tired of hearing people ask why not? This shit is the most ridaclous I've ever heard I cant compehend these thoughts that go through my head. Why? dont you do this Why didn't you do this? why? why? why? is all i can really say. I'm taking a stand I play music because I'm standing up for those unspoken words that needs to be say. I'm not backing down from what I believe in this is my life I'm taking it back you will not get the best of me. I will make some very big changes in my life maybe some to hurt maybe some to improve.



Sincerly,
Eric

The End of Another Year

Well it's New Years Eve I'm sitting in Heidis aparment and her friends never in my life have I ever felt so out of place. I wish I could understand why I'm like this but whatever, anyway yesterday we had a show in Pineville our hometown crowd came out it was truely amazing and one of the more fun shows we played. It was just an amazing time for all of us gained some new fans met some amazing people overall a really fun fun time. Currently I'm listening to pulling teeth and reflecting way too much I dont mind it never have really thats all I've ever really done is worry way too much and reflect. Not a bad combination if you ask me sometimes I wonder if I make the right decisions I doubt I do. At this current moment I cant stand myself I cant stand the thought of myself from outside of my body its killing me, it's killing me internally. My physical self has been dragging to the point of where it feels like its impossible to move. I dont understand I've been slacking it's times like these that make me wish i had no life. I'm just so upset with my self, choices and life.

Life is hard

I couldn't come up with a catchy title ha suprise? But just a little flashback about my life well since august I'll say. August was a really fun month relaxing amazing weather just an amazing atmosphere really. August is also when i reliazed who was my true friends and family I didnt really have much respect for my mother or father just because of things that happened when i was too little to remember. Jared and I decided to move in together that started an amazing time for sure but I did not know what was to come of September and i wished it wouldn't have. The 1st day of sept. I seen ceremony a band i've been wanting to see that was one of the greatest ways to start off the month. A week and half into the month I lost my grandmother ester that was a rough rough time considering the fact I did not spend as much time as I should have before she left. It's times like those when you look back and wished you could have spent every moment you had she lived an incrediable life. The friday after that I just thought was gonna be an ordinary day but I was wrong on every level possible. Shella and I was hanging out that day chillin going back to the cabin where everyone was come around a curve and a deer came out i swerved to miss and ended up going over the enbankment towards the river. 50-70 ft down the hill we hit a tree direct center of the hood bounced back off it and the bottom of the car stopped on a rock if it was not for trees and rocks I would not be sitting here typing away. That gave me a little wake up call, but I still didnt respect my family like I should and that still bothers me to this exact moment. October my band finally got off and going properly and we did a mini tour with our friends Bought in Blood and Those Who Fear amazing dudes from Pittsburg. That mini tour was completely amazing in every form we met so many new people amazing people at that. October was a really big wake up call saying "this is what you need to be doing." November was actually a ok kinda boring month to be honest nothing exciting happened. Finally Decemeber this present moment Christmas was really nice I've been reading Henry Rollins "The First Five" which is completely amazing that dude is in general an amazing person. Caleb arrived on a break from basic i think two weeks ago he leaves on the 6th we have 4 shows this week and possibly buying a van I've never been so excited in my life and Sunday i'm more than likely leaving on a 3 week tour as merch guy for bought in blood which i'll be super excited if that happens. But it was way too late so much to do tomorrow I'm going to bed I'll post tomorrow

Eric

Just a start

This is just a look into my life through my journeys as a musician/human being. I'm currently cleaning so and just relaxing but I should post later in more depth.



Eric